this is honestly giving me feelings like hgnnn. i get images of him suddenly deciding to call this thing off and start giving her the cold shoulder without much of an explanation and she doesn't rly show any emotions regarding it (although can't stop her face from falling when he pushes her away, harsher than necessary, and fuck it hurts him but he makes himself turn away) but instead one day hooks up with one of those flushed & breathless fanboys or that male idol with whom she exchanged numbers and although she never gets directly caught he's always distantly aware of it because he watches her and he pays attention to her in ways that he really shouldn't (and he seems them together at night, much too vividly, like a movie projected onto the dark ceiling of the bedroom when he's lying and trying to sleep because he has to get up in like two hours but no, all he can think of is this guy's lips on her and hands on her and what kind of noises he can make her make and whether he can make her feel better than sunwoo could, whether he treats her better than sunwoo did, fast flashing images of bra straps fallen from shoulders covered in long brown hair, man hands gripping soft thighs, fingers digging in, opened mouths and closed eyes, and more than once does he suddenly have to get up and on shaking legs rush to the bathroom and heave and spit sour gastric juices into the toilet bowl.) he doesn't call it jealousy, can't utter that name, but it doesn't help, it won't be pushed down and away and it gnaws at him so bad that one day he just cracks down and basically falls to his knees in front of her and begs her to stop, just stop, just don't, please.
(wow i wanted to write something more, something substantial, which is why i took forever to respond to this because i never got to that but oops suddenly word-vomited a bit anyway.)

and dream team recording i'm like HGNNN bec girl!cnu on dream team would be so hot??!! all wet too?!! but mainly sunwoo being miserable when it's with gongchan next time and he can't even be there to tie a towel around her like a cape BEC LIKE. he just wants to be with her, be by her side. and do all kinds of silly things together bec bottom line he just wants to be around her. and i'm like ;;;;;;;;;;; (also i rly like the image of girl!cnu and gongchan skipping around on the set and being buddies bec that would be very very cute u___u)

yeah wow you seem way better than be at coming up with actual material & relationshippy stuff i'm more like "well porn ig". (it's sort of a problem) (rly)